Nothing but a mere vision

.

.

.

It simply cannot be explained;

I close my eyes

And there it is

Right in front of me

This clear vision of you and me

As you walk my way

Your reassuring stare

Your touch and hold,

warm and strong

Your demeanour,

grand, impeccable,

even when relaxed

Your lips on mine, and a spark is immediately lit inside of me

These are all of the things

I like about you

Yes, M., I like you.

I really like you.

Needless to say you stood out

As a diamond in the rough

In a sea of rotten fish

As I open my eyes,

Startled by reality,

I quickly realize,

That it was nothing

but a mere vision,

a fleeting moment

in which I felt true,

comfortable, enamoured, intrigued.

But for a reason I can’t accept, till now,

The feeling is not mutual.

The need to be close to me is not there

The interest is not strong enough

And, as a matter of fact,

it is perfectly okay this way.

Thoughts of you arise

In my everyday

And it is at that moment,

That I understand

I cannot go on this way.

For I know too well

This familiar route.

As I know for it to be

The best thing to do

To keep my heart guarded

For the long term,

I will now say to you:

This is Goodbye, M.

As I know good and well enough,

One sweet day,

someone will also see the gem that I am,

and the beginning of our story

will be written effortlessly.