Dark clouds resurface, as another chapter ends.
I knew, in the depth of my being, that this moment was coming. I yearned to detach myself from this situation that was, to put it simply, no good for me, at all. Where there is the beginning of a story, there is inevitably, an end to it. It is in that moment, when it’s really over, that heaviness is felt within the heart. Ironically, on the same day, you look outside your window, and the sky is grey. Time is still, silence is too painful, yet, you don’t want to talk about your burdened heart. You want to be understood with no words spoken.
Know that it is your right to feel this way. It takes courage to willingly face that state of mind. To acknowledge it, to allow its presence, to understand that it’s reason of being resulted of the choices you made at the beginning of that new chapter. However, ease your mind and heart and feel no regret. Feel no regret.
This chapter in your life served you, allowed you to grow, to understand yourself more precisely, and undeniably, brought you so much laughter, joy, love and happiness.
Don’t erase or forget those beautiful moments. Remember, as you walk away, that you are always first and foremost in the top priorities of your life, as it is your responsibility to choose yourself and respect yourself enough to say no.
No, I refuse to go through similar patterns. Find enough love within yourself to say, as a deep mantra: yes, I do deserve a good person. Yes, I am a wonderful person. Not perfect, but I do deserve to be loved, respected, reassured, accepted as I am. Understand that finding this person who will offer you all of this will come along only when you offer all of this to yourself, first, foremost, and above all. A lifetime’s work, I suppose.
Nevertheless, I am not discouraged. My eyes wear a heavy gaze, but my heart is hopeful. I now know that everything in life is indeed temporary. Oh yes, ladies and gentlemen: the good, the bad, the ugly. This too shall pass.
And so, on this cloudy, rainy day, I close my eyes and practice gratitude for being here, feet firm on soil, alive, healthy, aware. Strong.
Strong enough to move on, once more. Wiser to make better choices in the future, and never tolerate things that make you uncomfortable.
Inside, fire burns wildly as I get back up. Resilience in full effect, always.
The rain is not a burden, it is a blessing, as it is washing away my sorrow. This too shall pass, and sunny days are bound to be back.
Wonderful days are yet to come.
